"Anger, Frustration, Depression"

Posted on Thu Jul 29th, 2021 @ 4:20pm by Lieutenant Adora (Addie) Hart & Lieutenant Commander Arianna Sky Kamar

Mission: Season Two - Incidentals
Location: Counselor's Office
Timeline: Right after Surprise JP

ON:

Arianna walked into her old quarters and let out a blood curdling howl. Getting tossed from her quarters by the new CO was cowardly if not down right cold! After all the hurt, harshness of getting her marriage annulled, and losing two of her most precious things in her life, she was devastated and crushed. Most of her friends were having problems dealing with it but now they had come to forget about it. She, on the other hand could not.......picking up the nearest chair, she threw it clear across the room, "You bastard! How could you do this to me!" she screamed outloud in the emptiness of her quarter's. Depression was setting in and that only made matters worse. Picking up her wedding gown she ripped it up into shreds and threw it across the room. Falling into a heap crying on the floor was the only thing she could do for the moment. Crying, sobbing, and crying again, she reached for her combadge, =/\= Lt. Hart, it's Cmdr. Sky-Kamar, can I see you? Please help me!=/\= Arianna pleaded as she sobbed.

The sheer tone of desolation in the other woman's voice was the first thing that caught Addie off guard. "Of course Commander, I'm on my way." Without hesitating, she excused herself from her meeting and headed straight to the current location of Commander Sky-Kamar. Once she arrived at the door she hit the chime, but then a few moments later she used her override code and stepped through the parting doors. "Arianna?" she called softly looking at the destruction in front of her. "It's Addie, you called for me?"

Arianna was still sitting in the same spot holding a piece of her wedding gown sobbing. Looking up at the counselor with tears running down her cheeks, "I wish I were dead!!!" she cried. "I have no reason to.live. they took my husband and my almost daughter away from me...I wanna die!" she sobbed. Arianna was in a state that wasn't easy to bring her out of. Being Klingon, and losing the only two things she loved, Frank and Hannah, for her she had no reason to live.

Addie glanced around at the mess in her quarters and shook her head slightly, walking across, she kneeled down next to the Klingon and rested a hand on her shoulder. "How about we start with just breathing," she said gently. "I want you to listen to my breathing and breathe with me, okay? Breathe deep, count to three and exhale slowly."

Arianna did exactly what Addie asked her to. Breathing in and out to the count of 3. It was un-nerving to breathe like this. However, after about 7 minutes, she felt herself begin to relax and get some control of herself. The more she rhythmically breathed the calmer she became and at one point her guard dropped and she thought she could hear other thoughts, but that was crazy as she was not a Betazoid. Continuing to breathe, she relaxed even more, so much so, that if you positioned her differently she would stay in that pose.

"Good, well done," Addie commented quietly. She looked around the quarters, noting the state of the room surrounding them, the assorted packing crates and storage totes, the shredded wedding dress, everything. She drew in a deep breath, realising who this hysterical individual was. "Why don't I make you a cup of hot chocolate and you can tell me what's happened?"

"That would be nice counselor. I would appreciate that with French Vanilla syrup please," Arianna said, trying to smile weakly.

Replicating the two mugs of hot chocolate, both with french vanilla syrup, Addie carried them back and sat down on the floor next to Arianna, handing one of the mugs across to her. "Now, why don't you tell me what's going on?" Even though she knew the story, she also knew it was going to be cathartic for Arianna to tell it.

Taking a sip of the delicious chocolate, its hot soothing taste made her relax a bit more and enabled her to tell the story calmly. "Well we were on the same outpost together when he got news that he was going to get his own command. We had become good friends by then and it hurt me to have him leave. See I had feelings for him by then and he for me. Enough so that he requested me to move to his ship here. So here I am. Well to make a long story short, we got married and it was wonderful. On one mission, we had to set down and we found a young girl and Frank adopted her and having her in our quarters was wonderful. I had a husband I loved and an adopted daughter and was a happy family finally or so we thought. As it were, fate entered the picture and we happened upon her people and Frank decided to return her to her people. It nearly killed me. I understood his reasons, but it took a part of my heart. Not long after that, this Admiral comes aboard and arrests Frank and nobody says a word to me. I practically lost it and questioned the Admiral and the Captain that was with her and both told me off. Next thing I know, I am not even allowed to see him or speak to him or anything. I was livid and here comes this Captain and hands me a PADD. It was a letter from Frank telling me to.....to.....," tears welled in her eyes again, "forget about him and the Admiral was going to get our marriage annulled. He basically told me to find someone else.......noooo," she said crying again. "So....so....now you see two big pieces of my life have been destroyed........"

"You are angry, which is understandable." Addie shifted so she was sitting cross legged on the floor across from Arianna. "You've experienced a large amount of change very rapidly, you're going through a process of grief."

"Grief?? That is for the dead. I could understand if they were dead, but they are alive. Living breathing induviduals not dead bodies"" Arianna's hand came down on the couch fast. She knew her own temper and it was time to walk away before she hit something else. Getting up, she walked away from Addie and looked out the window to cool off.

Addie raised an eyebrow slightly as the Klingon woman walked away from her, leaving her sitting on the floor. "Grief is for any kind of loss," she said softly. "And you said it yourself, you've lost both your husband and your daughter. You are experiencing grief, and there's no magic cure for that. You just need time."

"Time? How much longer will it take then? A week, a month, a year, 10 years? Addie, I was happy and felt like a wife and mother for the first time in my life. Now I am alone.......how does one recover from that and the way it was done?," Arianna asked Addie.

"There is no time limit on grief, it's a very personal journey, different for everyone." Addie remained calm despite the anger she could feel radiating off the Klingon engineer. "All you can do is take it one day at a time."

"It's hard Addie, everything keeps reminding me of what I once had. I need to find something to fill the emptiness in my heart. Something to care for and love. Something that will return the love and affection that I give....." Arianna said looking into Addies eyes.

"Just do it carefully," Addie cautioned. "You don't want to jump straight into something that may be unhealthy for you. Take time first to heal." She offered a small smile. "You are stronger than you realise. You can, and you will, come out the other side of this. Perhaps a little bruised and battered, but you will come out the other side. I promise. In the interim, I suggest a glass of wine, a gallon of ice cream and a box of tissues."

Arianna laughed at Addie's remark. "What kind of icecream do you suggest?", she inquired.

"Choc chip cookie dough," Addie smiled as she rose up to her feet. "How could there be any other choice?"

"Good enough. Choco chip cookie dough, and some blood wine. Sounds petfect. Thanks Addie," Arianna said as she stood and gave Addie a hug.


OFF:

Lt. Cmdr. Arianna Sky Kramer
Chief Engineering Officer
USS Tomcat

Lieutenant Addie Hart
Counselor
USS Pennsylvania